I woke up around 7 am this morning... Probably because I went to bed at 9:30 pm. Red wine always makes me sleepy! Anyhow, I've been in this incredibly pensive mood lately. I keep thinking about what I want out of life and what it's going to take to get it. I feel like I've lost my motivation. This isn't anything new, it happened my senior year of college and I'm wondering what it's going to take to get it back. I used to be so bright and motivated, always looking for something new to learn and constantly striving to be the best. Now, I'm fairly content with making do in nearly all aspects of my life. And I'm so sick of it.
It's really time for me to get off my ass and decide what's important to me and how I'm going to achieve it. I know I'm only 22, but I have this feeling that the decisions I make now are going to follow me forever. I almost feel burnt out, but I need to get over that and really try my hardest to make the sacrifices I'll need to make to do what I want. It's going to be difficult, but as they say, nothing worth having is easy.