so I won't hesitate no more...

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but all of a sudden I'm completely obsessed with that Jason Mraz song "I'm Yours" and it's totally erasing all the shittiness of yesterday. Basically, after the day from hell at work, I walked home with my roomie and then decided to do laundry. So I go down with all my stuff and the fucking card machine is out of cards. No problem - I leave my stuff down there and I go borrow a card from my roommate. I go back down and my fucking key breaks off in the lock! So now, not only can I not do my laundry, but I have left my shit down there. SO FUCKING PISSED. I call facilities and they take care of it, though. I don't even know. I couldn't do anything but just chuckle at the extreme ridiculousness of the situation. Murphy's Law...

Anyhow, I don't know why, but I woke up this morning feeling so happy and upbeat, listening to my song on repeat, bouncing down the street. I think I actually smiled at people! It's like everything has melted away - the drama at work, the uncertainty with New Jersey - and I'm just me. Having a good time and loving life - feeling excited about the possibility of something better. Hopeful. =)

Tonight I'm going to Long Island to hang out with my friends. I feel truly blessed to still be so close to people I knew back when I was young and dumb and didn't know who I was. I'm happy that so many of my friends have been on this strange journey of mine and that we still connect. I love knowing that I have forged some insanely close bonds that 4 years of college and a year out in the real world haven't broken. I am not the person I was back in middle or high school, and yet there's this feeling of acceptance and growth in my personal relationships. I am so lucky.

"Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved"

I am so sappy today. Haha. It makes me laugh.