wednesday night is date night?

Haha - well, it is for me. I have a date tonight and I'm feeling all kinds of weird about it. The last date I had was absolutely amazing, wonderful, and gave me that awesome glowy feeling afterward. And then he totally disappeared, except for the random facebook/text messages I get from him. Lovely. So now I have a date with this new guy - I've yet to give him a name. He's 29, Eastern European by birth, but lived in the States for 13 years. He works and goes to school part-time and he used to DJ and likes the Yankees. Sounds okay so far.

We'll see. I'm afraid I'll act like an idiot or a slut. However, I'm leaning moreso toward acting like an idiot because I'm too ill to be slutty. I hate dating. HATE HATE HATE it. I just hope this goes well and that he's normal and that he likes me and that he's not all weird or freaky or clingy or aloof. Just nice and normal. Cuz I need nice and normal. I hope he thinks I'm pretty =\ or at least not ugly. I'm just ready to be done with all of this.

Note: I'm sorry if I sound like I'm going to throw myself off a cliff. I'm just not feeling well. I need this vacation like you wouldn't believe.