day 1.

So today was Day 1 of fixing my life. Nothing really happened - haha. As a result of being up til the wee hours of the morning, I woke up around 12 pm. I did get out and head over to Battery Park, which I loved! Being by the water makes me so happy. Just sitting and watching it rush by, all the boats and ferries - it was beautiful. Spent a couple of hours there reading books and magazines and journaling. After that, I headed to Borders and bought some books - mostly fluff, which is new for me, in addition to some women's studies stuff. Then I grabbed lunch and now I'm home watching Dexter while I plan out my evening, which will most likely consist of laundry and cleaning. This made my father laugh and make fun of me. Ugh, nothing like your parents knowing you're a loser. Lovely.

In my newfound desire to cook, I think I'm going to make a pizza tonight. I'm also going to buy some sort of groceries to do some baking tomorrow. I think that'll be a nice way to round out the weekend. I got invited to this party tonight, but I'm not going to go. I just don't feel in the mood and it was kind of a last minute invitation (an un-vitation, if you will), so I don't really feel bound to go. I'm taking this hermit thing seriously =)

Not sure what's on the horizon for tomorrow, but I know I need to get my shit together in regards to my looks. I feel so gross lately. This whole 'transition' thing with my hair is sucky. Yet, every time I think, fuck it, I'm just going to straighten it, I see a pretty woman with natural hair and think that it's worth it. In the meantime, though, I am in desperate need of a pedicure, manicure, and an eyebrow threading. I also am thinking about doing boot camp again. There's one in Battery Park, which is super close to me and it'll start at the end of August and finish the week of my birthday. I'm thinking it'll be good for me.

I went to my first feminist task force meeting last week. The women seemed really great and friendly and there's SO much to do. I can't believe how many different forms of activism are going on. I really want to get involved. They were talking about some really interesting organizations, so tonight I think I'll do some research on that and see how I can help out. It really is about time I filled my life with meaningful work. After I do that, I think I'm going to look into taking classes at Toys in Babeland - they run some sex ed classes that I think would be right up my alley.

Baby steps, people, baby steps.