Yesterday was much better. Work was less shitty (still shitty, but less shitty), and then the girls all did the work-sponsored Happy Hour where we kvetched about why our friends are in such horrible relationship situations. We facebooked people and gossiped shamelessly and it was really what I needed. Walked home with Jax and another girl from the office, where I told them what was up with me and The Intellectual. Then I got home and got ready for him to come over.
He got to my place pretty late - it was like 9:30 PM. I was a little mad because I was tired, and when he got there he was mad because of something that happened to him on the bus, but we got into my room and got into bed and turned the TV on. Which was so pointless because we ended up talking through most of it. We talked more seriously this time - about our lives and ourselves. I told him about the problems I've been having with a friend of mine and I talked about TG and his new girlfriend (I don't care if I'm not supposed to talk about those things - I like to be upfront). He told me about what he's reading and the stories he's working on writing and his class. He also mentioned that he's not using Match anymore - he just let it expire, which he said surprised him. I told him I'd done the same thing. He said he wanted to focus more on himself in 2009 - writing and reading and getting something published. He said he wanted to get rid of unnecessary female drama (I don't know if I'm a part of that or not - I think not, though). He asked me about my situation and I told him I wasn't seeing anyone else anymore. I didn't say it like that, but I just said I wanted to stop seeing people I wasn't into and I told him about NYU Law Guy and how that ended. I teased him about never seeing his place and he said I'm welcome to come over whenever and that I'll definitely see it.
We hooked up, but no sex because of my period (ughhh). I kinda wanted to use it as an excuse to be all about him this time and I did. I think he was happy. When he finished, he was like "why would that guy (meaning TG) ever dump you?" Haha - that made me laugh. We just teased each other a lot and he was wayyy more affectionate. More face-touching and playing with my hair. He stayed pretty late and we just talked and cuddled more. Since I couldn't do anything fun, I asked him if he'd rub my back for me. "Absolutely," he said and gave me an amazing back massage, so I was happy. Before he left, he asked me if College BFF (who I talk about a lot with him) knows about him. I told him that she does and that I tell her everything (minus details). Then he asked if Jax (my roommate) knew we were hooking up. I told him "I don't think she thinks we're in here playing cards." HAHA - I'm such an ass. I guess he just wanted to know where he stands, if I tell my friends about him. TG always said I was mysterious and he'd often ask me if my friends knew I was seeing someone. So maybe that's why he wants to know. I don't know.
Anyway, I'm in a really good mood today - mostly because of him and it's scary. I'm just so afraid this is going to blow up in my face, which is why I'm walking on eggshells right now. We'll see.