In 2009, there were five main themes that dominated my life.
- My evolving relationship with NYC
- My evolving relationships with my friends
- Tech Guy (hopefully this is the last year I can say that)
- Frustration on the job
- Checking out
So yeah, my second year in Manhattan. This is the longest I've lived anywhere statically, outside of my Long Island childhood home. I'm slowly starting to fall more in love with this city every day. Honestly, I don't think I could live here permanently, but not for lack of wanting to. It's simply just the most expensive endeavor to live comfortably in New York. I pay a ridiculous amount of money for my apartment and while I love it, I don't want to live with roommates forever. Speaking of roommates, I found amazing ones this year that I love dearly. Girl and boy roomie are amazing and we have a wonderful time in our apartment and I think we really are happy. This is definitely one of the healthiest apartments I've lived in, full of trust and love and respect and fun. When we moved out of Stuy Town and into the FiDi, things got infinitely better. First of all, crazy roommate is gone, and second of all, I just love the neighborhood. Manhattan is back in my good graces again! I still haven't explored as much as I should have, but I'm crazy in love with the city and that's how I'll always remember 2009.
Friendships. Another theme of 2009. While I'm still not exactly where I want to be socially, 2009 was a good year, full of connecting with old friends and making new ones. I've met some really amazing people at work that I consider to be good friends (I even got to watch one of them get married this year - my first real wedding!). I kept up with my sorority girls, whom I love dearly. One of my 2009 highlights was spending the weekend in DC with about 5 sisters, catching up and having a fabulous time. There's my rock star roommates, hanging out with the kids from the old alma mater, and then there's my "family." My friends from Long Island are truly my family at this point, in every sense of the word. We love, nurture, laugh at, take care of, and fight each other like family. I love them - there is no one in this world like them and even when they piss me off and make me want to scream, I still wouldn't trade them for anything. When I die, I may not be able to say much about the life I lived on Earth, but I will be able to say that I made some absolutely fabulous friends.
Oh Lord, Tech Guy. What is there to say about him that hasn't been said? He's still in my life, even when I try to ignore him, he still pops up. Let me interrupt this post to say that lately he's been all up in my grill. IMming me, sending me Twitter messages, and then (this is priceless), sending me a text message about my vagina. Yeah, let's think on that for a little bit. So, he was in the airport thinking about nicknames for my vagina. Jesus take the wheel, because at this point I have no idea how to handle this. My life is a fucking soap opera. But, yeah. ANYWAY. TG still dominated 2009 and even though I started last year with a different boy in my bed , I spent most of my sexual energy on Tech Guy. I made four trips to CA and for the three in which he was single, we had sex. Multiple times. Then there was his 24-hour visit to NYC. I just don't know how to quit him, it seems. But, I'm trying. Yes, I am trying my darnedest. Wish me luck in 2010.
My job killed me this year - I've never been this frustrated about work. The pendulum is always swinging - some days I fucking hate that job and then other times I love it. The only thing that remains clear is that I love my company. I think we do amazing, innovating stuff and I work with some of the finest minds on the planet, but I need to get the hell out of HR. I think those three weeks I spent in CA in October were the hardest I've ever worked in my life. I love that I'm getting more responsibility and becoming a truly integral part of the team, but I am not being compensated fairly and my title still reads Coordinator so what the fuck is up with that? If that doesn't change in 2010, I'm going to fucking kill someone. Don't worry, dear reader, not you. =)
My last theme of 2009 is checking out. This year, I really just checked out in a lot of areas in my life. I saw a psychic, who pretty much told me that 2009 was going to suck balls for me and that it wouldn't get better until 2010. She advised me to just keep my head up, watch a lot of comedy films and try not to think about the shittiness of life. So I did that. I stopped dating in April of this year, after the Intellectual screwed me over. I haven't so much as looked at a man who wasn't TG in that time period. I mean, I guess I figured if life was shitty why bring dating (arguably the shittiest pasttime) into things. I checked out in my job, doing tons of searching for new positions and just overall not caring about things. I feel like 2009 was the year I put my life on hold and now I'm ready to get back on the path. It's time for action, doing. That's what I hope for in 2010.
So that's the roundup! Happy New Year's Eve, kids. Be safe, have fun!