Day 22: Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.
This one is really difficult because I believe every action you take in your life puts you on a path towards something and so even if you can't see it in the present, it doesn't mean that it's not a positive in some way. That being said, I think I'm going to list the one sexual experience that truly made me feel disgusting. I hooked up with this really not attractive guy in the Bahamas in a moment of weakness and I wish I hadn't have done it. It was spring break and I was on vacation with MB and we were at this club. I wasn't even drunk or attracted to him - I was just bored, which is no reason to do anything. I stupidly went off with him to this abandoned doctor's office place and it was just bad news bears. I'm lucky that he didn't force me to do something I didn't want to or that he didn't chop me up into little pieces. It was stupid and senseless and I really shouldn't have done it. I'm all about sex positivity and doing what you feel like sexually, but I didn't even have a strong desire to hook up with him - I kind of just went with the flow.
A few years have passed since that happened, and I've learned a lot more about taking control of my sexuality in a way that feels healthy and safe to me. Oh, I also learned not to give my phone number out to strange men I don't like because homeboy called me for MONTHS afterwards, promising to fly me back out to the Bahamas. Yeah... lesson learned.
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