- Lifestyle
- Work
- Education
- Finances
- Health
- Family
- Relationships
Here goes!
Lifestyle: Moving to San Francisco this August was the best decision I've made in a long time. I feel at home here and I'm loving living by myself. I love my apartment, it's got tons of space and it's all mine. I hate that I haven't decorated or really put my mark on the place. I hate that I don't cook at all and instead eat 3 meals a day at my job. It makes me feel like I'm not a real adult. I hate that I haven't bought nice pots and pans or cookware and that I don't have "adult" things. I have nice furniture, but I haven't put any artwork up or really gone about making my place look homey.
Work: I love where I work - my company is young, vibrant, and full of talented and smart people. I love the opportunities they've given me and the things they do. I love my team and my manager - they're amazing people who make going to work fun and I honestly think the only reason I've done this job as long as I have is because of them. What I hate is that I feel lost in my career and I feel like I'm doing something that's not really meant for me. I fell into HR by accident - it was supposed to be a stopover until I started doing what I thought I was meant to do - being an attorney. Instead, I decided the law wasn't for me and I just stayed in my current place, without thinking about what I really wanted to do. I grew complacent and stagnant and those are two qualities I can't stand. I'm starting to get out of that funk, but I still hate that I have no concrete plan for my future. I don't do well with not having a plan.
Education: I love the fact that my parents sacrificed a lot for me to attend my alma mater. I fully acknowledge that if it weren't for my Ivy League education, I probably wouldn't be working where I am today with all the opportunities I have. I am grateful for everything my parents did to get me there, as well as my own part in studying and working hard and being intellectually curious. However, I do hate that I haven't pursued a higher degree. For a long time I wanted to be a lawyer, but I realized that that's not the path for me. I do think, though, that I need to get some more education, hopefully an MBA. I also have a strong desire to get involved in the sex education business and I know that in order to do that, I need to get certified and take classes. I just hope I never stop learning, whether it's from the classroom, reading on my own time, or researching the things I'm interested in.
Finances: Anyone who knows me knows that I suck at money. My finances are a hot ass mess, which is a goddamn shame because I have a steady, well-paying job but apparently I don't have any sense. I love that I have the money to live the lifestyle I like. I hate that I can't seem to save money for anything and that I'm not as stable in the long-term as someone in my situation should be. This is one area with huge red flags all over it - I need to fix my money quickly because you never know what could happen, especially in this economy.
Health: Another "area for development." I love that I have such a solid grip on my emotions and my inner mental growth - I'm incredibly introspective and I try to reason out all of my feelings so I know what's going on in my head. My spiritual health could probably use some work, but I don't know if I'm ready to tackle that yet. What I hate is that I'm not 100% satisfied with my physical fitness. It's not as much about my weight, it's more the fact that I used to be super athletic and now I've just kind of stopped doing anything physical at all. I miss feeling like my body could do anything - walking a half-marathon, playing a game of volleyball, doing a boot camp. I want to feel that again. I need to really look at what I'm putting into my body and maybe swap out some of the booze for some fruits and veggies. I love living the drunken, party girl lifestyle, but one day it's going to catch up with me and it will not be pretty.
Family: I love that I have such a supportive family - my mother, father, and three brothers. We're a pretty close bunch and we're all a bunch of characters. Our loud, New York personalities make going home for the holidays a blast. What I hate is that the distance makes it so difficult for me to communicate with them regularly. I live in SF and they're all in NY. I work a demanding job, so by the time I get home, it's like 10pm their time and my geriatric parents are already asleep. I hate that I'm not patient with them - that I snap at my mother and ignore her calls and texts sometimes because she'll contact me at inconvenient times. I wish I could be a little bit kinder with them, realizing that it's hard to have your only daughter 3,000 miles away from you.
Relationships: I love that I have a ton of amazing friends and that they're family to me at this point. I love that I still spend every day talking to three people I met in the 7th grade. I love that I've made excellent work friends that I can party with, share secrets with, and laugh with. I love that after 25 years of being single, I've finally found a boyfriend. For the hate side of this coin, I'm a bit challenged emotionally. I find it hard to connect to people sometimes, especially men. I'm in this relationship, but sometimes I'm not sure I'm really in it. I get scared and I always want to run away. I need to work on fixing that. I hate that I can't seem to open up to the guys I date and really give them my all, the way I do with my friends.
Wow, that was long, but super productive. I love inspecting my life from all angles, so this was a perfect exercise for me!
Hopefully this challenge will help me grow =)
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