Thursday, May 19, 2011

random thoughts on a thursday night.

Life is such a funny, crazy, busy thing. I've been having all these intense feelings and thoughts lately, while I scramble to get my life together. I think I've started to careen out of control lately with how much I'm doing and what I want to accomplish. I'm trying to take a step back and evaluate what's going on with me and how I'm going to pull myself out of this chaos.

I'm hoping to get a handle this weekend, even though I have already made some plans. My apartment is starting to look like Grey Gardens. I'm not even joking - they could film an episode of Hoarders in here. I need to get on that stat before (1) I get some sort of infestation or (2) I trip, fall, break my neck and my body is left to rot for weeks. Yeahhh, cleaning! Woo hoo!

I tried taking this Energy Management class at work and it sucked like whoa. A complete waste of time and I got nothing out of it. I'm still searching for the perfect time/energy management solution - some kind of way to compartmentalize my life so that I can include every little thing I want to get done - work, reading, time with friends, writing, blogging. I have so many interests and just not enough time to explore them all.

I'm starting to get disgusted with my body. I need to start working out and stop shoveling crappy food down my throat... says the girl who's planning to go to Butter tomorrow night and eat mozzie sticks and deep fried twinkies. Jaykay on the twinkies - that's gross, but yes to fried cheese! I just don't know how I've let myself go so quickly. Normally I'm on this and I'm really good at maintaining my weight.

Yoga is becoming something I'm interested in trying. My therapist and I were talking about how I don't have any hobbies and maybe I need to get some. I mean, watching Mob Wives and Real Housewives is not a legit hobby. Yoga seems like it could center me and make me more limber. Perfect mind-body connection that my hippie-tendency self would love.

Anyway, it is time for this girl to watch Criminal Minds and sleep. More tomorrow, promise!

3 comments:

2blu2btru said...

I know how you feel. Way too much is happening in my life right now. I finally started cleaning up my place. So far, the bathroom and kitchen are nice and clean. The rest...

I have felt a little off kilter and have had a hard time trying to balance everything. I think yoga is great. I used to practice a lot more than I do now, but it's worth looking into for stress relief and clearing your head. I picked up running as well. Here's to hoping we both pull it together.

Kate said...

I LOVE the way I feel after an hour of yoga - especially hot yoga. It really is helpful not only to work muscles you never knew you had, but also in calming you down, helping you sort through or ignore stressful thoughts for at least that class time. I haven't done bikram, but really love vinyasa. I'm sure either would be worth a try!

I go to this organization in New York, because the classes are so cheap, and they seem to have locations in SF as well! http://yogatothepeople.com/san-francisco/

Cleopatra Jones said...

@2blu2btru - i'm faithful we'll both get things on track - i think it just takes some time! =)

@Kate - thanks for the recommendation! that one is on my short list of places to try!