I actually had an enjoyable weekend, despite the fact that I gave up my Saturday to elf for the sex ed group where I did my training. I've been so far removed from the world of sex education lately, that I had forgotten how captivating and exciting it is to me. I miss it, and Saturday was the perfect reminder. Sitting in a room full of sex nerds and watching a ton of porn really helped me realize that I need to make space to do more sex ed research, training, and teaching. I can't let myself forget again how much joy I get out of it. Listening to panels on sex and hearing from men and women with sexual identities that are different from my own is eye-opening and fascinating.
I'm so jealous of this year's class. They get to hear a talk from an erotic clown! Warning: if you are going to look up erotic clowns (like I did with my friends at drinks on Saturday), it is not safe for work. Just so you know... I am just so intrigued by any and everything sexual, even things I have no desire to experience. The whole subject is fascinating to me.
Another forgotten love: theatre. God, I miss theatre so damn much. Stage managing was one of the most frustrating yet gratifying experiences I've ever had. To be a part of something like a play or a musical feels so good. I'm not going to delude myself into thinking I have time for that, but I can certainly start getting my butt to the theatre more often. Maybe even doing some ushering. Also, I need to get back into the movie scene. I remember living in SF right after I graduated from college and TJ and I would see 1-2 movies per week! I miss that. I need a movie buddy out here.
I've made a decision recently that I don't care if I run myself into the goddamn ground, I'm going to do all of the things I want to do. I hate when people tell me (or when I tell myself) that there isn't enough time. I know it's true, but I'm going to fight it with every ounce of strength I have. I want to write; I want to keep my job so I can make some money (for now...); I want to explore entrepreneurship; I want to volunteer and educate people about sex; I want to get back involved with theatre; I want to watch movies; I want to continue to read as many books as I can get my hands on; I want to keep up with all of my friends, both in SF and outside of it. Life is just too short and I can sleep when I'm dead. I've always been a better person when I'm busy.