Tuesday, June 19, 2012
insanely bad day.
Jesus take the wheel - I do not know how much longer I can do this shit. Today was just ridiculous - I don't have time to get into it right now, but my job is killing me on so many different levels. Today, I had to get up at the ass crack of dawn to fly back to San Francisco. Flew back to a ton of work and missed emails and shit. I have an event on Thursday that I don't feel prepared for and my co-lead is now being hospitalized, which has me incredibly worried. I practically was in tears on the phone with her and I'm praying for her and her baby. My job is making me want to pull my hair out and we have the event this week and next week is our huge developer conference. I just don't know what to do anymore. The work will get done and done well - it always is, but I just don't know how invested I am in it anymore. To top that off, I have to drive tomorrow and I hate driving. It gives me panic attacks practically. And then the job that I was interested in got posted and it's in Atlanta or DC, so basically I know it ain't gonna work out because I don't want to move. Oh yeah, and then I sat in on a FREAKING TWO HOUR LONG board meeting til 9:30pm. FML.