I did so many things I dislike doing today, including falling even further behind on my work. I also drove, which was terrible. I hate driving. I know it's a useful skill and all, but it sucks. It sucks so much, especially highways. Not looking forward to having to drive back to San Francisco tomorrow in Mountain View commuter traffic. This event may end up being craptastic, too. I can't say I really care much. I'm kind of over everything. BUT, in good news - the job I'm interested in is open to California applicants as well. So yay! I'm meeting with the recruiter on Friday and I'm nervous as hell. I've already seen a bunch of people interested in the role and I hate competition. I like to be sneaky - get in early and get it before anyone else sees. I'm also nervous because I'm going to have to tell my boss and team how I'm feeling about my job. It's terrible timing, honestly, with our *major* event happening soon. However, I gotta do what I gotta do. I just don't know how to say it. It's crazy because I've transferred before - this shit isn't new to me - but it's still so hard. Maybe because I feel friendly with my manager and I like her and I don't want her to think it's a reflection on her. I just know that I'm not built for this and I'm starting to burn out and it's not worth it.
I need a change.