I am feeling very disoriented lately and I think I need to do a complete life overhaul. My apartment, my job, my social life, my body. Everything needs an upgrade or at the very least an update. I don't feel like I'm fully optimized, which is hard for me. Everything feels off kilter.
Balance is probably the most important thing to me. I am a person of extremes, which makes life get a little crazy sometimes, so I'm constantly striving to be as balanced as I can. I want to be a grown-up, but I still want to have fun. I want to have a successful career, but I also want to have a kick-ass social life. I already feel like I cram a lot of living into my days, but I'm trying to figure out how to do it better, so I don't have these periods of depression where I go into this hermit phase because I can't handle the reality of my day-to-day. It's just not healthy.
Right now, there are a number of things I know I need to work on. I have to start working out again, that's priority numero uno right now. I also would love to completely clean out my apartment and organize things in the proper way. I get a serious hard-on for organization. I love it. It's almost perverse how much I enjoy doing weird shit like organizing my books and DVD collection. I'm also trying to figure out why my love life is so stagnant right now. The sad thing is, whenever I get an opportunity for something, I say no. I don't know what's happened to me, but that's a tale for another time.
In the meantime, I want to focus on getting my apartment clean so I feel like I'm living more like an adult and less like a frat boy. Tomorrow, it's back in the gym for me!