Writing from the plane - I can't sleep, oddly enough (probably because I'm not really tired at all) and so I figure I might as well bang out some things on my to do list. So major update! Today marks my 6 month celibacy anniversary. I think that all my friends can now admit that I am officially celibate. It's been 6 months and I've turned down 2 opportunities to sleep with someone - so I win/lose! Haha.
I'm shockingly okay with it, which is weird. I don't know why - this is the longest it's been for me since my 21 years of initial celibacy. It's nice to not have men ruling my life right now. I'm also feeling good because I'm half out there (have my online dating profiles back up), so it's not like I'm totally ignoring men. I'm just taking a break - a well-deserved, much-needed break. Everyone needs a break from the grind. So far, I just have this one guy I've been talking to (the one I was supposed to go out with last week). He canceled twice, which is a no no in my book, BUT homeboy has been texting me regularly from his vacation and I've been putting no effort into it at all. I respond to him and I really like talking to him, but I'm not chasing any boys right now. If he wants it, he's going to have to come and get it, cuz I am not shoving it in anyone's face. That's my new philosophy. Pursue me. Make me want you. I don't want to chase, I don't want to speculate and wonder and work myself into a tizzy. I just want you to come and get me. That's what my life is like right now. I have other shit to focus on - I can't be worried about dating.
In other news, I have my cross country train trip next week (so excited!!!) and fall time in New York. Then I have my last event of the year (as of right now) and Mexico with L&S and Jazzgirl. SO excited. It's going to be so much fun.
Anyway, I'm going to lose internet soon, so I'm signing off. Cannot wait to be back in SF.
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