I have lost sight of myself over the past year and I think I'm ready to rectify that. I haven't been taking care of myself physically, mentally, or emotionally and I've been too focused on external factors. Things that don't matter. I'm really exhausted, every piece of me is just tired. I need to bring the focus back to who I am as a person and what I have control over in my life. That being said, I think it's time to really shut out the noise coming from the outside and spending time doing the things that I want to do. My job is crushing me right now and maybe if I wasn't focusing on petty bullshit, I would be on top of it. I want to spend the next 15 months working and becoming the best event planner I can be. I want to get my promotion and plan some really amazing events. I also want to explore the idea of getting into the wedding industry. It fascinates me and there is so much money to be made. I want to take a look at that.
I want to be healthy. I want to have a regular workout regimen and I want to stop drinking like I'm a 20 year old frat boy. I want to focus on finding a balance - being able to enjoy alcohol and food without feeling like I'm losing control. I want to feel more connected to my body, more present within it. I want to clear my mind and make sure I'm taking the time to focus on my mental and emotional well-being.
Basically, I want to love myself again, even if that means I need to be a little selfish sometimes. The reality of how old I'm getting is setting in and there's still so much work to be done.